Losing weight : My journey

O.K., here goes.. Initially i didn't want to write about this but due to overwhelming requests (LOL).. i'll share with you about my weighty issue and how I handled it.

Once upon a time, out came this big chubby baby weighing the heaviest at the hospital. She was 12 pounds! And all through childhood till her teenage years, she was never small. She was nicknamed 'dinosaur', 'Doraemon', and 'Godzilla' and 'Big Momma'. And because of the weight, she grew up too fast as everyone regarded her as a 'big girl' because of her size. She didn't get to do many of the things her friends did. She didn't get to play what they played. They were afraid she would crush them or step on their toes. They had told her so. So she sat by the corner and watched wistfully.
Fast forward to her adolescent years in secondary school. When other girls were busying themselves with the dating game and comparing boyfriends, she would fade away in the background as she had no clue what was being discussed. One day, she got fed up with how dull and uneventful her life was and decided to do something about it. She went to the family doctor with her mother and was put on duromine ( a type of appetite suppresant). Within two weeks, she had lost 10 pounds! But the downside was, she was always soaked with sweat and her mouth was always dry and she was always hallucinating. So, she quit the drug and went on a very strict diet and as she liked walking, she did just that. A lot of it.
Then she got into the sixth form in secondary school, pleased with her new self and the newfound confidence. She weighed around 80-ish kilos and started to get attention. She was loving it. She got carried away and forgot to remind herself that each morsel that went into her mouth had to stay somewhere and she took for granted that she could eat normally and not gain weight. How wrong she was.
By the time she got into uni, she was nearly back to the weight when she first started. Depressed, she told herself that she could wriggle herself out of the excess kilos just like she did before. Another mistake.
So this time around, she was more determined than ever to lose weight. She went on a shopping spree and found clothes in her size and she felt good and looked good too, despite the weight. So she continued doing this but bought them in a few sizes smaller. She challenged herself that she would fit into all that she had purchased.
She ate only protein, no carbohydrates. No rice, no bread, no cookies, no ice-cream, no chocolates.. NO SUGAR! No nice anythings! Soon, her weight began to melt away and she was very pleased with herself. She dragged herself out of bed early every morning to work out. That did not last long though as she found it tough to crack those insomnic eyes open in the morning. A morning person she wasn't. So she resorted to making every single thing she did a workout. Like taking the stairs instead of the lift, walking faster with shorter steps, taking longer routes instead of the normal ones...
Sure, she had the occasional cravings and binges but she would punish herself afterwards. Like walking an extra three mile! It was worth it!
There were times she had felt like giving up when she saw how other people could eat all they wanted and stayed so slim. She was envious of her friends who were slim and took that for granted. They had never been fat. But she reckoned if something couldn't kill her, it was going to make her stronger. And it did. So, she fought on.

To say she's won the battle would be a far cry from reality because until today, she is still fighting the battle.